the funeral was today.

the gathering room they were going to hold the service in could hold, at the most, 75 people. close to 300 showed up.

they had to move the service outside.

i could here saundie laughing and saying, “y’all got it all wrong.”

the services was beautiful. saundie’s oldest daughter gave a great eulogy. she talked about the day she told saundie she was pregnant. i remember that conversation because saundie excitedly told me her daughter was pregnant.

after the services, i just stood around with friends and other people from work. i hugged everyone i could or would let me.

i didn’t cry. i really wanted to, but i didn’t. i went up and touched the casket and told saundie that i’d miss her. i still didn’t cry. i hugged saundie’s sister. i still didn’t cry.

tomorrow is a new day and time to look ahead and forward. hopefully someday i will cry, but i just can’t bring myself to do it.

click here to read saundie’s obituary.